Clarity. That's the word that came to me on Sunday night as I sat staring at my blank screen. Clarity. As I age, some aspects of life become quite distinct and other areas that had previously been clear, seem to be shrouded in fog. It is the hope that by the time the wild blue yonder opens wide, all areas of life have become crystal clear.
Isolation. At this time of year, I feel reflective. And on Monday it was the word "isolation" that came to mind. This past year has been quite isolating for me; more so than any other year that comes to mind. There is a certain loneliness that comes from carrying heavy burdens and quietly passing by in the shadows while the others dance and laugh and carry on.
Chaos. The older my kids get, the more chaos they unleash. My life is in constant chaos between juggling all my duties and my kids and pets. Chaos is almost always the word that comes to mind.
Each of these words conjures up very different images. And yet, this is where I am at this point in 2012.
As I think about the past year, I recall that on December 31, 2011, I said that my mantra would be, "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13" I can say with certainty that verse has served me well and carried me through this most difficult year.
So, it is with open heart and open mind that I look for clarity in those murky areas of life; try to embrace the chaos that is my life; and work to break out from the dark and lonely isolation of watching life pass by. Over and out...