Inside My Head

There's a lot that goes on inside my head. I make lists; I sing songs and hum along with an imaginary orchestra; I write posts; I referee debates between my head and my heart; I justify; I reason; I pray; I run through worst case and best case scenarios; I calculate, often having to do with time; I speak with an accent, usually British; I shut out the rest of the world.

We all need this alone time. And "alone" can mean many different things to each person. I can be completely alone at my desk, in a silent house, in the middle of the night; at the kitchen counter while chopping vegetables and surrounded by dogs, cats and little boys all needing different things from me at the same time; in the middle of a busy airport with people rushing to and fro, heading home or getting away or running to close a deal or visit grandma, as I sit with earbuds in, magazine open and oblivious to the perpetual motion; while shopping for groceries, wandering up and down the aisles without my kids and without a clock ticking for me to somewhere or do something. I can be quite alone in many places.

Being alone recharges my battery, clears away the webs of schedules, to-do lists, deadlines, the have-tos and need-tos, the push and pull of everyday. I can think again. I can put things into perspective. I can get back in the game of life.

Shutting off. Being Still. Meditating. Writing. Taking a walk. Just sitting without speaking. It shouldn't be so hard to do. Why does it feel so selfish sometimes to take this time to be alone?

For a mom this can be a difficult task....but it's a necessary one too. Today I'm celebrating taking the time to be inside my head and start the week off with a clear perspective of the tasks that must be tackled, taking into account that there will be very little alone time. Over and out...

Anna

Comments

[Chris]

My favorite time is early morning, when I'm the first one up. My day goes so much better if it starts in quiet!

[Kakie]

Resonating post, good for you for celebrating! For generations our role conditioned us it was our duty to be the care-takers. It takes time to figure out where the line is between being selfish and taking care of ourselves. Wishing you moments of peace in your week!