This time of year is hard for me. The change from summer to fall and into winter. It always takes me by surprise. Shorter days and changes in weather. I struggle to accomplish tasks. I feel sleepy and groggy and out of focus. I wake up tired and panicky, warily starting the day.
I push myself to check off the tasks…do laundry, send an email, make a phone call, walk at Lake Harriet, pick tomatoes, paint the dresser, pick up boy #1, pick up boy #2, run to activities and to the store, make dinner, work towards deadline, make lunches for next day….slogging through the to-dos and then realizing how little I actually accomplished each day and feeling the guilt of sluggishness.
I must remember to be gentle with myself. I must remember to take my Vitamin D and get outside as much as I can to soak up the sunny daylight and push myself to walk fast in the cool, crisp air around Lake Harriet, willing by brain to clear away the fog. I must remember it doesn't last forever.
One day the words will come more easily again…my eyelids won't feel so heavy and my head so unfocused. I will return to my normal more alert and driven self…one day…
But right now it's time to get out the sun lamp and let the stories swirl around inside my head. They'll keep.
Do you feel this way this time of year? What do you do to get through the fog? Last year, the higher dose of Vitamin D made a huge difference for me….working on that now. Over and out…